What you can do or think you can, begin it –
boldness has genius, power and magic in it.
I’m embarking on an adventure, a revisitation of an old love and talent, and I’ve decided to give it my best shot. Might I fail? Sure. Might I fall short of my goal? Almost certainly. Does it seem doable? Yes. So – here I am.
When I was younger I might have drifted along, waiting for opportunities to come to me. In part I think that is because earlier in my career I was in the loop and surrounded by people who had the same aspirations I did. I was ready and available whenever anyone had a project or performance they needed another player for. It was also easier to drift when I was younger; the whole world was open before me. Now, I need to make a plan and take action for my adventure to have shape. I’m not in the same circles anymore, and when somebody needs a trumpet player I’m certainly not the first person that comes to their mind. Also, life happened. I have a family, other pursuits and interests, and a community commitment that all need to be taken care of. It’s not just me anymore, but more to the point, opportunities won’t fall in my lap. I need to go to them.
The next item of business is that I need to be ready when any opportunity comes along. It’s no good finding the perfect thing to participate in and then starting to prepare. I need to be prepared every day, and that means getting stronger and better, even with no use in sight. That’s a hard concept to embrace, even for somebody who has had it knocked into their head many times over the years. It’s like a lot of other things in life. It’s invariably when I’ve let myself gain a few pounds that I am invited to a dinner dance that I need to fit into that dress for. If I had kept up my good habits, I’d be able to throw it on at short notice and go have a good time. I can’t lose weight overnight, no matter how much I want to. I can’t be ready to step into a performance opportunity without being in shape musically either.
It’s all part and parcel of the reinvention of Mary. It feels good to have a goal.